Sometimes.

Sometimes, you feel like you want to spill out everything. But then, suddenly a thought comes across 

you mind, you're going to hurt them if you talk about it. 

You know that they don't mean to do anything harms towards you, but sometimes you'll feel like a stranger among them. They are having secret conversation between them and you're not part of it.

you're hating yourself for these feelings, cause you know to have these kinds of feelings are really not right, but you could not stop yourself from thinking like that.

Sometimes, the feeling of inferiority hit yourself, and you're trying to just let it go, and reminding yourself that everyone has their own positive and negative sides, but you just can't take it out from you mind, that they're better than you in many aspects.

sometimes, you're trying to show them that actually deep inside, you're hurting, but you rather keep quiet cause you're afraid that it's gonna hurt them too.

sometimes when good things come to them, you always remind yourself, that your time has not yet to come, different people gets their own achievements on different times, and your time will come one day, but still, you're going to shut yourself down from the world.

cause you know the truth but you're having a hard time to accept it.

you know that those problems and assumptions that you have are actually childish things, and it's better for you to get rid of those thoughts, but sometimes, you just can't bring yourself to do it. 

better things will come at better times, on better places, with better people. After all, life is a long journey.